Made Me Fall

You found me at a time in my life when i didn't want to be found. At a time in my life when i was focused and settled in my ways. you told me you wanted me at a time in my life that i didn't want to be wanted. over time i grew to wanting to be found by you. I realized i wanted to be wanted by you. The moment i realized all this i saw my life begin to change before my eyes. I saw this light at the end of the tunnel that was bright and warm. The closer i got to the end that light got briter and hotter. When i reached the end their you were sexy as ever and i just knew that i finally made it to my forever.

The second i stepped out the tunnel and ran towards you a bridge began to form that would allow me to cross to the other side where i thought love might be. The first step i took i closed my eyes and put one foot in front of the other and as i did the bridge began to Trimble, and unravel under me. i fell and you just stood there and watched me, how could you just watch me fall to the heartbroken canyon that was under me. You led me down this path to get to you, you found me when no one else was looking, you showed me the good in other and allowed me to fall for you. When i told you i didn't want anyone in my life you told me all these lies. and now your no where to be found and i am falling deeper into this canyon afraid to reach my arms up and save myself from falling because falling is easier than allowing this to happen again.

So i ask you why, why did you find me in the first place. Why didn't you just leave me in the tunnel where i was safe and settled. Why did you allow me to waste those months and my money on you when you were not gonna catch me when i fall, you told me this that prevented you being with me, but did you not realize i could have helped you with them, and now ur disappeared, no more phone calls, barley a text, and no more jokes. I remember the way you made stuff feel to me,Like I was all you'd ever need
Did you change your mind,Well I didn't change mine.Now here I am trying to make sense of it all.We were close friends now we don't even talk. You broke me Ripped my world apart. I can't get you out of my head.I still remember the shit you said. Left me all alone You couldn't be more gone.From falling apart to fighting mad.From wanting you back to not giving a damn I've felt it all I've been to the wall. Scared to let someone in.

So i am falling head first into this abyss that i fear will engulf my heart and soul with a feeling i fought so hard to let go, so hard to get over and continue on with my life. You have allowed me to fall and i am not sure that i even want to stop falling, because if i climb back up again i fear that someone else will trick me into falling again and i don't think i will survive this a second ttime. you said yyou feared that you would hurt me and u did it any ways.One day justice will come and find you And I'll be right there in your memory to remind you.Don't wanna let life pass me by.Never knowing what it's like.To be as real as real can be.To share my life and know my dreams. So I Wanna Just Know Why did You Find Me when i didn't want to be Found.